The human heart is an organ that pumps blood throughout the body via the circulatory system, so how can Audrey make mine hurt so much lately?
I’m a self confessed ‘Googler’. I am the person that will self diagnose a problem via google (not recommended) or quickly confirm the latest celeb gossip with a search on the wonderful web. I even typed in the human heart to check what it’s correct function was.
At 11 months Audrey’s separation anxieties are at a all time high, all she wants is daddy. I guess most babies are clingy to their parents but this ‘phase’ is ridiculous and one of the hardest stages of being a parent for me.
It is lovely seeing the incredible bond between daddy and daughter but when Dave leaves the room and I fail to comfort her my heart aches and the feeling of being inadequate showers me. It’s not all fun and games for daddy either as sadness overwhelms, seeing both me and Audrey heartbroken.
It was a trip to jersey to stay with family when I nearly reached breaking point! Dave couldn’t even turn his back without a complete meltdown, I felt like a pretty unless mummy. At 3 in the morning, trying to keep her quiet not to wake the house hold after another daddy episode i turned to google.
Instant relief! After convincing myself all week that Audrey had some kind of disorder and I was going straight to the health visitor as soon as we returned home I was pleased to find official nhs advice on the subject.
I was settled to read that all children can go through these separation issues until school age and they could feel particularly unsafe in certain situations making their anxieties worse and they would therefore turn to the caregiver they feel safest with. Quite obvious really!
Looking at her little life as a whole I’ve put her through a lot in the past month from returning to university myself to failed settling in sessions at nursery and now taking her to stay with family who themselves have their own busy work/family routine.
A giant pillar of strength as dave was described at our wedding, his arms are definitely my safe place so thinking about it clearer I definitely don’t blame Audrey for daddy being her protector. Google salvaged our week away and allowed the organ commonly known as a heart to pump blood and love around my body once again.
